CONFUSION!

So now I really don't know what I want to do!!!

PROS OF CREMATION 

• I get to see Max, he is always with me physically 
• I get to take him places 
• I can talk to him directly sort of
• I know where he is
• It will be comforting having him home
• He will get to be covered in his blankey and comfortable in his crib 
• I could donate the grave lot to the next family who needs it
• I could donate his casket to the next family who needs it 
• I will get to make a necklace of him

CONS OF CREMATION

• I might have to face seeing him again
• I might go crazy
• I might take him everywhere I go
• I could get confused with who he really is
• I might not like the idea of his body burning

PROS OF BURIAL

•  He's already buried
•  I get to decorate the grave
• I have a place to visit him
• There is a lot of space to have a picnik by his grave
• The grave site is by the park and river

CONS OF BURIAL

• I don't know if his body is safe (grave robberies and such)
• I don't like the idea of his body decomposing
• I don't like that the things I put on his grave could get stolen
• I want the things that are in his casket back
• I have bad mental images of what he looks like now in the casket
• He is in the town over
• I dont know if he is safe, I feel like he is alone over there
• I feel guilty if I go to Sterling and don't visit him
• I cant decorate the grave how I want to 
• I feel so far apart from him and I just want him now